I have officially stopped waiting for a genuine apology from my parents or my siblings. I haven’t ceased waiting because I’ve suddenly decided they don’t owe me one—they owe me a massive, groveling one. I stopped waiting because the last eighteen months taught me a brutal psychological truth: waiting for an apology is just another form of remaining tethered to the trauma.
And I have zero interest in residing anywhere I was forced to beg for entry.
Last month, Sarin’s elementary school hosted a district-wide academic showcase. It was one of those chaotic evening events where children stand proudly beside tri-fold cardboard displays while parents mill around sipping lukewarm, acidic coffee from a folding table in the gymnasium.
I attended. Obviously, I attended. I have never missed a single one.
Sarin’s project was situated in the psychology aisle. Her chosen topic was Resilience. She had spent six weeks meticulously researching the science of trauma recovery, analyzing the psychological variables that dictate why some individuals bounce back from catastrophe while others remain permanently buried under the rubble.
Her display board was a masterpiece of organization, featuring a hand-lettered, bold title. She had executed the entire project without my assistance.
I approached her table, a cup of terrible coffee in my hand, and began to read her conclusion paragraph. At the very bottom, written in her neat, precise handwriting, was a sentence that wasn’t cited from an academic journal.
