I abandoned my paralyzed wife for ten days to chase another woman, convinced she would still be helplessly waiting exactly where I left her

I had said yes.

She had smiled faintly, but not with happiness. I had not understood that smile then.

Now I did.

I read on.

I wanted to ask you before you left.

I wanted to say her name out loud and watch your face.

But part of me was afraid that if I asked, you would lie gently enough that I might believe you. And I could not survive another gentle lie.

So I waited.

Not for you to choose me.